fandomhigh | Library [08/19]

"I wonder if your devil's trap could contain Trigon," Raven said thoughtfully, looking at the drawing again. "Or perhaps one that was altered with symbols more familiar to my world. Do you know of any other ways to repel demons?"

"Yeah, there's a bunch of ways," Sam said. "Holy water will burn a demon, and it's good because it doesn't hurt the person they're possessing. If you want to keep demons out, you can line your doorways and windowsills with salt, because they can't get past that."

"I believe holy water may work as well in my world," Raven said. "But I have never heard of salt keeping a demon out." She'd eaten foods with salt, hadn't she?

"If one is possessed by a demon, are you able to see it? Is there any outward manifestation of the corruption within?" she asked.

[yis, I've totally set myself up to be Christo'd, so if you want, go ahead. ;) ]

"Unfortunately, if someone's possessed and the demon isn't using any of their powers, they look completely normal," Sam said. "If they do start to act out, their eyes go black. You can either watch out for that, or if you want to test someone, you can say Christo."

[I didn't want to do that without asking first. TY! :)]

Raven's eyes didn't turn black, but they did glow red (all four of them) as she flinched away from Sam with a startled gasp. She stared at Sam in fear and dismay, tensed to flee. "Do not be afraid," she pleaded as her eyes (only two now) returned to normal. "I will not harm you, I swear it."

Sam's instincts had kicked in at the eye glow, and he'd taken a step back, but he hadn't gotten much further than that. "Because you can't, or because you don't want to?" he asked.

"Because I do not wish to," Raven said. "I do not wish to harm anyone ever. I use my gifts to heal. Please, you must believe me! You and your family do not have to kill me."

"We--we won't kill you," Sam said, at least partly certain about that. "What just happened? Why did you--when you said you wanted to talk about the demons from your home, I didn't think..." He trailed off, not sure what to say.

"I wanted to know if there were ways that you or your father or your brother could trap me or expose what I am," Raven admitted. "The demon that I described to you -- that is my father, Trigon. But I am not like him. I will not be like him."

"So you're a demon too?" Sam asked. "You're not like the ones I've met. If you were, I'd be dead, so that's a point in your favor."

"I was raised to resist my heritage," Raven said. "So that when my father comes to claim me, I will be able to fight him, not submit and rule at his side. I am a healer, not a destroyer. I am sorry I misled you, but I feared I would be killed or forced to leave the island if anyone found out what I am."

"I guess talking to my dad didn't help with that, huh?" Sam asked. "We hunt things that are evil, but when it comes to here...it's different, we know that. You're not the first demon we've met who wasn't out to harm anyone."

"I am not? Are there others like me here?" Raven said, allowing hope to begin to dispel her fear. If Sam was attempting to trick her, then he was doing an excellent job of concealing his emotions, but she cautiously chose to believe him. "Yes, your father left me with the impression that if he knew what I was, he would seek to destroy me. I cannot help what I am; I did not choose my father, nor did my mother understand what he was when he came to her. But here in Fandom I am attempting to find my own path, and my own strength."

"My dad's a little more sensitive about the subject of demons," Sam explained. "It's hard for him to see the gray areas when the demon that killed my mom is still out there, taunting us. Before we came here, I never would have believed that someone related to demons could choose to be good, but I've seen it. There was a student here our first year here who was half-demon. I mean, he wasn't citizen of the year or anything, but he proved to be a good guy, so we left him alone. I wouldn't recommend coming out and telling my dad about yourself," he added quickly. "He won't hurt you, but he probably won't like you very much either."

"Your father told me he had personal reasons for being so determined to hunt demons, but I did not realize that was why," Raven said quietly. "I am sorry; that is a terrible thing to suffer, and I hope you are able to find the one responsible and punish him." She looked up at Sam. "You will not tell your father about what I am? I would be grateful if you would keep my secret. There are some here who know the truth, but I would rather others learned it from me."

"I won't tell him. It's your secret, not mine," Sam said. He knew all about keeping secrets, after all. "I'm sorry I, you know, set you off."

"Thank you," Raven said in relief. "And do not apologize. I do not think either of us expected that. It felt as if that word somehow penetrated my control and let my demon half emerge for a fleeting moment. Normally that does not happen." Unless she was angry or scared, but she didn't want to mention that part.

"That's pretty much what it's meant to do," Sam said. "I won't say it again, I promise."

"Professor Skywalker has been helping me shield myself from the emotions of others and control my own," Raven mused. "He knows what I truly am. I wonder if he would be able to help me resist reacting to that word, though it must be a useful tool for you so part of me would hope there is no way to deny its power."

"It's a useful tool when we're using it on creatures that deserve it," Sam said. "Professor Skywalker is definitely a good choice to talk to. I think if anyone can help you, it's probably him."

Raven nodded. "He has been an excellent teacher, and I have learned much from him. Without his wisdom and guidance the emotions in this place might have driven me mad when I first arrived. ~~I might have to form a fan club, care to join?~~ And as I said, he knows of my heritage, and I am certain if he thought I was a danger to those around me, he would not let me remain here." She knew that first hand from the other Fandom.

She sighed and managed a small smile. "It is a relief to have you know what I am but not wish to destroy me. I have been worried about that for some time."

"Yeah, he takes the safety of everyone very seriously, and he wouldn't hold back if he thought you were too dangerous to be here," Sam said. "Sometimes, the way he tells the truth can be uncomfortable, but it's also really useful."

He smiled softly as well. "I'm sorry you were worried, but I'm glad I know what's up now."

"In the other Fandom, I lost control of my gifts," Raven said. "Professor Skywalker was able to strike me down and stop me before I could harm anyone. It is strange to be grateful to someone for killing you, but I truly am. And I know he would do the same in this world -- not that I have any intention of allowing it to come to that.

"I sought to hide all that I am when I first came to this place," Raven continued. "It has been comforting to learn that I do not have to, that I can still be accepted despite my parentage."

"I think a lot of people feel that way when they first get here. I know Dean and I did. We'd spent our whole lives lying to people about what we really did for a living. It's not the same," he said quickly, "but I understand the feeling of wanting to hide things to be accepted."

"There are people in the world my mother was from that have special abilities like mine," Raven said, nodding in sympathy. "But most are forced to hide them to live a normal life, and mask themselves if they use their gifts in the open. People fear what they do not understand."

She cocked her head and studied Sam for a moment. "You are very different from your father," she decided.

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