Library [09/25]

[likethegun]

It was a very annoyed Sam Winchester who opened the library in the morning. His date with Peter had been foiled and he'd gone back to his room feeling like a complete idiot.

And then he'd woken up with breasts. Again.

As much as he wanted to do nothing more than hide in his room, Sam took his job seriously enough to show up and get settled behind the desk. Without Dawn this time around, he had no access to girl clothes, so he'd had to do his best with the smallest clothes he owned. He hoped that if he stayed behind the desk, no one would notice he wasn't wearing shoes. Or a bra.

He could already tell it was going to be an unbearable day.

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Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

Sam tried very hard, but he couldn't help but burst out laughing.

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"I'm so glad you think this is funny. I can't tell if he's screwing with me, or just disturbed," Jess said. "Can't you give him an ultimatum or something? Cut him off if he doesn't stay away from me? Because you can't possibly be okay with this; you like me about as much as I like you."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"You're right, I don't like you, and the idea of Peter spending any time with you kind of makes my skin crawl," Sam said. "But I'm his boyfriend, not his keeper. I'm not going to tell him who he can or can't hang out with. Odds are, he's really not screwing with you. He's just...being Peter."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"He's being a jackass," Jess replied. "I don't get him at all."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"You know, calling him names isn't exactly making me want to help you."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"You just said you wouldn't help me."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"No, I said I won't help you the way you want me to," Sam replied. "But if you sit down and shut up, I can try to help you understand. Peter's not like normal people, and you have to deal with him a lot differently than others."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

Jess bit back all the annoyed comments he wanted to make, and sat down. "All right, I'm listening."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"Good," Sam said, going over to sit across from Jess. "Okay, so I'm sure this won't surprise you, but the first thing you need to know is that Peter is very stubborn. Very stubborn. When he gets an idea into his head, it's almost impossible to get out. So, if he thinks that you need friends, you're not going to be able to convince him that you don't."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"It's not just that he thinks I need them. It's that he thinks I want them," Jess said. "Specifically in the form of him."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"Okay, that's a good point number two: Peter is very loving, and he expects other people to want to be loved, or at least liked. The idea of loners, of people who like being alone, will never compute with him, so telling him that you don't want friends is just going to invoke the stubbornness because he's probably convinced you're wrong."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"He's totally convinced that I'm wrong," Jess said. "He keeps telling me he knows me when we've talked less than a handful of times and I do everything I can to not tell him anything about myself."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"That's probably not helping your cause either," Sam said. "You know he's empathic, right? I mean, he's really, really good at reading people. You might think he doesn't know you, but he probably understands more than you'd think, even if you do try to close yourself off."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

Jess had to admit that a lot of this was finally starting to make sense. "He thinks I'm pathetic," he said, adding quickly, "and I'm not. He acts like I'm hopeless, like I have all these feelings and emotions that I'm dying to share, when I don't."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"Okay, here's two more things," Sam said. "First of all, Peter is the second coming of the patron saint of hopeless causes. If you've given him any reason to believe that you might need the smallest bit of help, he's going to try to help you. And second, part of being empathic is being emotional. He likes emotions, and he wants to talk about feelings. There's just no way to get around that."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"But I shouldn't have to!" Jess said. "You're making it sound like I don't have a choice, like I have to put up with Peter because he's latched onto me, and that's bull! I should get to choose who I'm friends with and who I trust."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"Hey, I didn't say you have to trust Peter. I mean, that wouldn't be the stupidest thing in the world to do, but..."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"That's what he wants. He wants me to trust him. He already said he trusts me," Jess replied.

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"He did?" Sam asked, not feeling even the slightest bit jealous, oh not at all.

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"Yeah. He said he knows enough about me to trust me, and that's crap. I can't guarantee I'll have his back if he's in trouble. What if it's something like those crazy people that were here this weekend? I'm not dealing with that!" Jess said. "And if he keeps trusting me, then eventually, he's going to want me to trust him too."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"And that would be bad? Peter's a very trustworthy guy."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

"I don't trust anyone but myself," Jess said. "Hell, I don't even trust my own family. And I'm sure as hell not comfortable with anyone putting trust in me. I'm not a good person, and I don't know what I have to do to get Peter to see that. You see it, everyone else sees it, why can't he?"

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

"Because he's Peter," Sam said. He was tempted to not give Jess any more help, because really, someone who didn't trust their family was someone he didn't want to deal with, but Sam was hoping that getting Jess to calm down would help Peter as well. "He's blind to the flaws of others. It doesn't matter what kind of person you are."

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[noboynextdoor.livejournal.com]

The more Jess listened, the more Sam was making it sound like he had no choice in this, and he couldn't even describe how much he hated that. "I've screwed over a lot of people. They'd all line up and tell him not to trust me. Why isn't that good enough?"

Re: Second Period [09/24]

[likethegun]

Sam sighed, wondering if he really wanted to talk about this. In the end, he decided it might be the only way to really get Jess to understand.

"When I was a baby, my mother was killed by a demon, and to make a very long story short, there's a chance that someday, that demon's going to come back for me. And when he does, he's going to hurt the people I care about, and it's entirely possible that he's going to make me hurt the people I care about. Peter knows all of this, and his only reaction, no matter how bad things get, is to promise me he'll save me and that when it's all over, he'll help me pick up the pieces. That's the kind of person Peter is. Once he gets it in his head that he wants to be around someone, that's it, no matter how awful you think you are."