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Sam grumbled softly under his breath. "You're so much nicer than me."

"It's your family, so that makes it easier," Dawn said, smiling at him, "I'm not as nice with mine."

"Alec is not part of my family!" Sam said, sounding kind of horrified at that thought.

Sam got another look. "He's all but dating your brother! He's like his...clone, or something, or whatever. How much closer do you need him to be?"

"He's...he's not...look, I've just started getting used to the idea that Alec is a decent person. And he is dating Dean, whether he wants to admit it or not, but...he's not family. Zoe's close to being family, and that's only because she's pregnant. Alec's still a long ways away from getting anywhere close."

"Sam..." Dawn was getting aggravated, "Principal Washburn's giving birth to your sister in a couple of months. That's like...family squared! She's giving you new family, and she obviously plans on sticking with your dad in the long-term. Family's not what you're born into--it's who acts like family, and Alec does, whether you like it or not."

"Alec will never be part of my family, no matter how he acts," Sam insisted, trying not to get angry at the thought. "Family is me, and my dad, and Dean. In the very near future, Zoe and Grace will be part of that too. But that's it. The other people we get close to are in a whole separate category."

Dawn couldn't help but notice she wasn't on the list either. "What category is that?"

"Well, it depends on the person. I mean, I don't want to consider you family, because that's weird and not entirely appropriate. As for Alec, I'm pretty sure he'll never be anything more than 'That guy who hunts and has sex with Dean.'"

Dawn was ready to slam her head into something. Or maybe Sam's. "Why are you so sure about Dean and Alec? I think they really care about each other."

Sam sighed softly. "I know that Alec cares more about Dean than I thought he did at the start. But Dean is the only person he cares about. If something happened to me, or my dad, he wouldn't care. And someone can't be part of a family if they don't care about everyone in it."

"He has to learn, Sam," Dawn pointed out, "He's never been part of a family before--he doesn't know how it works. And...well, I think he'd care more than you think he would, already."

"What, so you think he should get to use my family as a testing ground? That's pretty unfair to the rest of us," Sam said. "And you really haven't seen the way Alec and I interact, or you'd realize how little he'll ever care about anyone but Dean and himself."

"How is it unfair? Is he hurting your family? I'd offer him mine, but they're not here!" Dawn couldn't believe they were still fighting about Alec, "And you're full of crap, Sam. You're just as at fault for the way you interact as he is. I know he cares about me--and not because I'm having sex with him, because, wow, no, and I think he knows that, too."

"You think Alec cares about you?" Sam asked, more curious than anything else as the feeling in his gut turned to a 'this is wrong wrong wrong' type. "Why do you think that?"

"Because he talks to me and trusts me with personal stuff and is my friend?"

"He...he does?" Sam replied, suddenly feeling very, very oblivious.

"Yes." The duh was implied.

"I didn't know that," Sam admitted, in case that wasn't obvious, and he decided not to voice how much he didn't like that at all. "In that case, you should feel free to adopt him into your family, whether they're here or not. Maybe you can teach him how to be a normal person, because I doubt Dean's going to bother."

"He's already kinda there, not that there was an official ceremony or anything," Dawn told him, unsure about Sam's reaction, which seemed kinda ass-y to her, "I don't want Alec to be normal. I want Alec to be Alec."

Sam was beginning to wonder how he could have missed Alec getting close to Dawn, and he also wondered if he should start to be worried. "Knowing how to be part of a family is normal" he explained. "But even if that somehow magically happens, it's impossible for me to even imagine ever being close to Alec."

"Why? Because he's having sex with Dean?"

"No. Our personalities are just completely opposite of each other. And I can't imagine him wanting to be close to me either," Sam said. "I mean, you said yourself that family is who you want it to be."

"I don't think he doesn't like you," Dawn told Sam, "and he's not completely different from Dean, and you get along with him okay. I just...maybe you need to accept that Alec's gonna be around for a while."

"I get along with Dean because for all our differences, we're brothers, and that's more important than anything else. I've accepted the idea that if Alec and Dean are still together when Dean graduates, they're probably going to go off and hunt together. But that's the best I can do."

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