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endsthegame ([personal profile] endsthegame) wrote in [community profile] fandomhigh2013-08-05 02:11 pm

Practical Philosophy, Monday

Another nice day, another class outside. Ender had brought two pitchers of lemonade and some cups to go along with the sandwiches - he was thirsty, and he assumed the students might tend towards the same, even if it had cooled off a little bit in comparison to last week.

"I hope none of you were hurt during the shark attacks yesterday," he said, settling down on his end of the circle. "For all that it does to twist our minds and bodies, sometimes Fandom likes to settle for more old-fashioned terrors."

He pulled up his legs. "Some of us are used to this," he said. "I don't mean here, but out in our home dimensions. I'm not, but my boyfriend is. We react to these events accordingly. My first instinct is to stay indoors and minimize the risk I might be running by going outside. His is to fight and protect. Neither of these approaches is wrong, even if his is more dangerous than mine. They're determined by the way we've been conditioned to respond to danger."

"Most people have probably heard of fight or flight responses," he added. "When confronted with danger, the average human will choose to either stand his ground and fight, or run away so he can fight another day. Part of the choice are rational concerns: is this danger likely to come back and trouble me again if I leave? How high are the chances of me surviving this fight? Mostly, though, it's an instinctive choice."

"I was raised in a military school. While there were threats from my peers occasionally, most of our trouble was psychological. You had a reasonable expectation that you wouldn't be physically harmed, and you were not expected to have to physically harm anyone to get out of a dangerous situation." Except for Ender, at times, but they didn't need to know that. "What aggression we did have was channeled into competitive games. Ben, on the other hand, was raised in the full expectation that he would have to go out and fight, and his enemies would not care too greatly about his personal well-being. He was taken out into the world to find and confront those enemies. His instincts are active: he seeks out conflict so he can fight it head-on and rid himself of it. Mine are passive: I won't fight until I'm actively forced into a fight-or-flight situation."

His mouth quirked briefly. You had to know him pretty well to detect it wasn't a happy smile. "I would have fought, if I'd gone out into that shark rain," he said. "So it's not a perfect example. But my instincts told me to stay inside, to minimize the risk that I had to fight. At the same time, I learned at my school that you can't flee from your peers - that if a danger was actively posed, there was no way to out-flee it, so the best choice was to minimize the chance it popped up. What were your instincts? Why do you have them?"
myownface: (Mmmhmm.)

Re: Talk.

[personal profile] myownface 2013-08-05 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"Well, come on," Sparkle sighed, "it's not like it's hard to ignore the odds that they're going to go just like I keep saying they are. Sure, I'm studying those books that Karina brought me, and I'm working a couple of jobs. Hell, if I luck out, I might be able to go to community college or something. But it's not like the glimpses of the future I did get were very promising, either. Better to be a pessimist. At least that way, I can't get too disappointed once life fucks me over."
myownface: (Completely Impressed.)

Re: Talk.

[personal profile] myownface 2013-08-05 09:08 pm (UTC)(link)
"Effective is kind of what I'm going for, here." Sparkle gave his shoulders a shrug, and then made a reach for one of the sandwiches. "Or else what would be the point?"
myownface: (Mmmhmm.)

Re: Talk.

[personal profile] myownface 2013-08-05 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"Same as they've always been," Sparkle replied, picking at the crust of the sandwich idly. "Survive this place, get back to Toronto, survive the home until I'm old enough to strike out on my own. And then if I'm extra lucky, maybe I'll manage to not fuck up so hard that I end up in prison or on the street again. This place is pretty good at teaching basic survival skills if you happen to live near shark-infested sidewalks. Not so much if you want to make a place for yourself in the real world, when the real world has made it real clear that it doesn't have room for you."
myownface: (Ah.)

Re: Talk.

[personal profile] myownface 2013-08-05 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
"Never said anything about getting hurt," Sparkle replied, giving the sandwich a vengeful sort of prod. "Just disappointed. There's a difference."

Not much of one, granted. But still a difference.

It had plenty to do with getting hurt, though.