fandomhigh | Library [09/17]

"I wasn't laughing at you," Sam said quickly, thinking about how that might have sounded. "I just could have used this book a year ago, about being in love with your best friend. I didn't even know it was here."

"Really?" Gabrielle asked, before hastily adding, "It wasn't for me. I mean, that's not a problem for me. I was just curious, and it looked interesting, and were you, really?"

"Yeah. I mean, I still am, really. That's what I have this for now," Sam said, pointing to the book he'd been reading about long distance relationships. "He graduated over the summer, so he's home now."

"I'm sorry to hear that," Gabrielle said a little more gently, leaning forward against the desk. "I'm sure you miss him a lot. Is the book any help?"

She chuckled as something occurred to her, and gestured at the non-Sappho volume she'd brought back in. "I'm thinking of sending a copy of that back to Hercules and Iolaus, actually."

"Yeah, the book is helping. Not as much as the fact that I'm going to be seeing him in a few weeks though," Sam said.

"Are the two of them together?" he asked. "Or do you think they need to get woken up to exactly how much they care about each other?"

"I know the feeling, in a way, at least. I miss seeing my best friend --" because that was all she was, really -- "and I can't ever turn down a chance to go home for a visit."

She tapped a finger against her lips, thinking. "I don't think they are -- at least, not as far as I can tell, but I do have my suspicions."

"In my experience, it can be hard to tell the difference between best friend feelings and more serious ones," Sam said. "Especially if they're new feelings. If your suspicions are right, I hope they get it figured out. It's a lot better that way." It was a good thing he made that clear since his dorky grin surely couldn't have given it away.

Oh, no, the grin didn't give a thing away at all.

"You make it sound like more people have that problem than they realize," Gabrielle said thoughtfully.

"Well...yeah, I think they do," Sam said. "My brother and I both went through that, actually. We'd never been with other guys before. Then I met Peter and he met Alec and everything changed."

"You make it sound so easy," Gabrielle observed with a laugh.

"Oh, it's not easy. I got really lucky," Sam said. Really, really lucky considering he got Peter, of all people. "Peter and I spent like, a year dancing around how we felt, but it could have been a lot worse, like if he didn't feel the same way about me, or if my family wasn't okay with it. I'm sure you know how it goes." Because everyone lived in his brain, apparently.

". . . not really," Gabrielle answered slowly, from a perspective down near the opposite end of the spectrum where none of these concepts had ever seemed like a big deal ~~because RenPics tried to be all coy for six years~~. "Although I can understand not wanting to be forthcoming about your feelings right away." Hard not to understand when you shared campfires with Tall, Dark, and Broody, who never coughed up the details about her angst.

"I guess not wanting to be forthcoming is pretty universal, no matter who you like," Sam said. "It sounds like you come from a place as open-minded as here."

"Not really. I mean, not always," Gabrielle mused, thinking of Ephiny. "Athens is more tolerant than most of the small villages we pass through, and the Amazons are still working through their prejudice against the Centaurs. But some places . . . it's all right. Sometimes you just need to give someone a little bit of encouragement. I know I might still be home in Poteidaia, wishing I could do more, if I hadn't met Xena."

She smiled. "It's why I try to do that for some of the people I meet."

"Well, you might have your work cut out for you here," Sam said. "I don't think we can have enough encouraging people here."

"Even in Fandom?" Gabrielle looked surprised for a moment, then stared off into the stacks, considering. "It's hard to let go of things you've been taught your whole life, though, I know that. And if noobody knew that book was here . . ."

"And as nice as it is here, people still go home and see their families, and that's not always pleasant," Sam said, getting thoughtful as well. "Encouragement could go a long way."

"Especially if they feel safer here," Gabrielle added. "It's easier to talk about things like that when you're not worried about being in danger if the wrong person overhears. I'd love to get a chance to help people out that way, if we can find them."

"Maybe we could have them come to us," Sam said. "Like, offer support openly to people who are going through this kind of stuff."

"Like the reserves, only in reverse?" Gabrielle suggested. "Except not entirely in reverse. Having other people around who they know will be accepting of who they are is just as important."

It wasn't all that different from an Amazon tribe, in a way. "It can be like a . . . a safe refuge for them."

"That sounds like an alliance," Sam said. "I mean, that's one term for it, at other schools. I think that'd be an awesome idea."

Gabrielle's face lit up like it did when inspiration hit. "You think we could start one here? Wait . . . alliance between who?"

"Between people who like people of the same sex and people who like people of the opposite sex and everything in between," Sam said. "So people know they're supported even if it's by someone who isn't going through the exact same experience."

"Oh. I'm used to thinking of that in terms of armies," Gabrielle admitted, "but that makes sense too."

A little more seriously, she added, "It is important for people to know they're accepted. I do believe that. I think we should definitely do this."

"I think we should too," Sam agreed. "If even one person feels better, it'll be totally worth it."

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