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Library [09/18]

Sam yawned as he headed into the library and started opening the place up. He couldn't stand having his room be cluttered in his newly-moved-in state, so he'd stayed up late finding an organized place for everything. For now, he had coffee, but he was looking forward to the weekend, when he could just relax and sleep in.

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"The point is, we're not serious yet. I mean, I don't think he wants to be serious yet. And I'm not going to christen anything unless it's serious," Sam replied.

Dean regarded Sammy for a moment. "So do you know he's not ready to be serious or are you just assuming? The same way you assume no one should want to be close to you?"ccc

It was amazing how interesting the desk looked, really. "We haven't been together that long. I think it's a fair assumption that he doesn't want to be serious. I mean, he was friends-with-benefits with Brooke for how long?"

"Yeah, but you're not Brooke," Dean pointed out helpfully.

"I know. I'm just trying not to expect too much," Sam said. "I don't want to do anything that's going to make me lose my best friend."

Okay, yeah, Dean could understand that; lord knows he'd had to tread carefully with Alec often enough. But...

"He's your best friend. That gives you a little more leeway than you'd have with someone you were just getting to know."

"I know. But not enough leeway to push him too hard," Sam insisted.

"I'm not talking about pushing, I'm talking about, y'know, asking. Actual conversation."

"I don't know how to ask without feeling like I'm pushing," Sam admitted. "But maybe Peter will know I'm just asking. He has a way of figuring out what I'm getting at when I can't seem to manage words right."

"Always a good quality to have in a best friend," Dean observed.

"And a more-than-best friend," Sam replied.

"That too," Dean said. "Though from where I'm sitting? The best friend part is the most important."

"Do you still think of Alec as your best friend?" Sam asked.

"Yeah," Dean said immediately. He'd tried to come up with another term for it more than once, but really, best friend summed it up best.

"I think that's really important too. Especially if he feels the same way about you," Sam said. "Which I assume he does."

"Yeah," Dean said again. "He's got my back as much as I've got his."

"I still think of Peter as my best friend too, and I don't want to lose that part of him," Sam said, before smiling softly. "You think I worry too much about this stuff, don't you?"