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fandomhigh2022-09-09 10:58 am
unusual_sith) wrote in fandomhigh2022-09-09 10:58 am
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"Welcome back, everybody." Today the desks had been moved aside to clear a spot on the floor. "Today we're going to start with one of the first things every Sith learns. It's also popular in a number of other philosophies both in my galaxy and here on Earth - meditation."
She gestured to them all to join her. "Traditionally, you kneel." She demonstrated. "But if you find sitting more comfortable, you can do that instead. Comfort is not a consideration when learning to be Sith; if you're too comfortable, you're probably doing something wrong. But I'm not teaching you to be Sith, so it's up to you if you would rather experience it more realistically or simply conceptualize it.
"Some versions of meditation I've looked into, the idea is to be comfortable because you want to forget your body, to look outside of it, to not center yourself. Sith meditation is more about connecting with yourself, knowing everything about yourself, and then connecting specifically to your emotions. Focusing them, enhancing them, so you can use them later. Traditionally, focusing on your discomfort, your anger. Using it to gather up the Force, to make it do what you need it to. It needs to be a state that you can fall into at a moment's notice."
She smiled. "Again, I don't expect you to do that. Even those who are learning to be Sith can take weeks or months to refine their meditation enough for it to be useful. But if you're comfortable with that, try it. Ask me questions if you have them. If not, let's talk about why not. Let's discuss why you feel uncomfortable with the idea, and what an alternative might be."
She gestured to them all to join her. "Traditionally, you kneel." She demonstrated. "But if you find sitting more comfortable, you can do that instead. Comfort is not a consideration when learning to be Sith; if you're too comfortable, you're probably doing something wrong. But I'm not teaching you to be Sith, so it's up to you if you would rather experience it more realistically or simply conceptualize it.
"Some versions of meditation I've looked into, the idea is to be comfortable because you want to forget your body, to look outside of it, to not center yourself. Sith meditation is more about connecting with yourself, knowing everything about yourself, and then connecting specifically to your emotions. Focusing them, enhancing them, so you can use them later. Traditionally, focusing on your discomfort, your anger. Using it to gather up the Force, to make it do what you need it to. It needs to be a state that you can fall into at a moment's notice."
She smiled. "Again, I don't expect you to do that. Even those who are learning to be Sith can take weeks or months to refine their meditation enough for it to be useful. But if you're comfortable with that, try it. Ask me questions if you have them. If not, let's talk about why not. Let's discuss why you feel uncomfortable with the idea, and what an alternative might be."
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Her fists tightened a little against her thighs, frown deepening, as she tried to do what Lana had said, to focus on that, and how she did feel that drive to do something about it, to defy him and do what she felt was right, and how she could never in a million years feel even the least bit bad about what she did in disobeying him, because if she had obeyed him, then her mother...and Hope...
It wasn't irrational at all, and the fact that it wasn't seemed to just feed into it either more.
She wanted to say that it wasn't working, clearly; wasn't meditation supposed to make you calm? But the more Libby did it, from this perspective, the more she just felt her heart racing and her brow furrowing, and she didn't like it....but...but...
She reminded herself of what Lana had said; she noticed the adrenaline, and the focus it gave her, and she started to feel her heart slow back down a little bit and her hands loosen again and she breathed a little easier. She still didn't like it, she'd rather focus on something far more positive, but she would think about it. She would meditate on it, and hold onto it, even if now all she wanted to do was just forgive her father and pray that God would soon be able to open his eyes more, and his heart...
And now she was just left wondering if her winding up just praying meant that she'd done it wrong, and she supposed she could be a little angry at herself for that, but there wasn't a whole lot of heat in it, and then she wondered if she just had too much stuff going on in her head more times than not to be much of a meditator.
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