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fandomhigh2019-06-17 07:02 am
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Tao of a Silly Old Bear, Monday, Period Two
Kanan didn't look much more on the level today when he had the class congregate on the school's lawn than he had sounded on the radio. He still had a Bad Feeling chewing away at his head, but aside from the slightly shifted skyline across the causeway, all signs pointed to normal out there today.
So he was splitting the difference and just sticking close to the school, no need to make their way all the way to the park when they could just retreat inside if... he didn't know... giant worms came bursting out of the ground to devour them all or something?
"Everyone is special," he said, standing there with the book in his hand. He'd had to read it over a few times in order to really get much of anything out of this chapter, not because it didn't say anything, but more because it had said rather a lot, and his attention kept wanting to drift outward, looking for something wrong. "That is, everybody has something that they do, something they're good at, maybe, that means that they have a place in the F-" A beat. "The universe. A... role to play or a destiny to find, maybe." Another beat. He sounded every inch a faintly distracted Jedi in that moment, and that wasn't what this class was supposed to be about. And so he sighed, shook his head, and tried again. "There's a term in Taoism, Tz'u, which can be translated to caring, or compassion. There's a saying to go with it, 'from caring comes courage.'"
Okay, deep breath. He could get through this lecture, and then maybe try to find time today to meditate somewhere. Sort all this out.
"Basically, one can boil this lesson down today to, 'follow your heart.' Don't simply trust conventional knowledge, trust your own wisdom. Cleverness can solve a good many things, but only if you understand properly when and where and how to apply it. Your instincts, your feelings and emotions, have more to offer you than you might give them credit for."
Yeah, he said it. Even the would-be Jedi threw 'emotions' into the mix. So there.
There was a pause, and then, mildly belatedly, Kanan added, "So, this is our last class. Things have been a little rocky, but we've managed to somehow get from there to here, talking about going with the flow and trusting yourself and understanding where it is you belong in the universe as it stands. Some of you," poor Sabine, "probably wondered why you were even taking this class. That's fine, too. Not everybody is made for sitting around, waiting for the answers to come to them." A pause. "That said, we're going to meditate, today. Take a seat on the grass, close your eyes, and if you're inclined to meditation already, do your thing. If you aren't, if clearing your mind and reaching out for answers isn't something you really do, then just sit and contemplate. Contemplate where the island's been so far, and what that's meant to you. Contemplate where you've been so far, and what that's meant for the island. If you'd find it easier still, feel free to pair off or have quiet discussions about both. Not all reflection needs to be done in the silence, alone."
[OOC: Open!]
So he was splitting the difference and just sticking close to the school, no need to make their way all the way to the park when they could just retreat inside if... he didn't know... giant worms came bursting out of the ground to devour them all or something?
"Everyone is special," he said, standing there with the book in his hand. He'd had to read it over a few times in order to really get much of anything out of this chapter, not because it didn't say anything, but more because it had said rather a lot, and his attention kept wanting to drift outward, looking for something wrong. "That is, everybody has something that they do, something they're good at, maybe, that means that they have a place in the F-" A beat. "The universe. A... role to play or a destiny to find, maybe." Another beat. He sounded every inch a faintly distracted Jedi in that moment, and that wasn't what this class was supposed to be about. And so he sighed, shook his head, and tried again. "There's a term in Taoism, Tz'u, which can be translated to caring, or compassion. There's a saying to go with it, 'from caring comes courage.'"
Okay, deep breath. He could get through this lecture, and then maybe try to find time today to meditate somewhere. Sort all this out.
"Basically, one can boil this lesson down today to, 'follow your heart.' Don't simply trust conventional knowledge, trust your own wisdom. Cleverness can solve a good many things, but only if you understand properly when and where and how to apply it. Your instincts, your feelings and emotions, have more to offer you than you might give them credit for."
Yeah, he said it. Even the would-be Jedi threw 'emotions' into the mix. So there.
There was a pause, and then, mildly belatedly, Kanan added, "So, this is our last class. Things have been a little rocky, but we've managed to somehow get from there to here, talking about going with the flow and trusting yourself and understanding where it is you belong in the universe as it stands. Some of you," poor Sabine, "probably wondered why you were even taking this class. That's fine, too. Not everybody is made for sitting around, waiting for the answers to come to them." A pause. "That said, we're going to meditate, today. Take a seat on the grass, close your eyes, and if you're inclined to meditation already, do your thing. If you aren't, if clearing your mind and reaching out for answers isn't something you really do, then just sit and contemplate. Contemplate where the island's been so far, and what that's meant to you. Contemplate where you've been so far, and what that's meant for the island. If you'd find it easier still, feel free to pair off or have quiet discussions about both. Not all reflection needs to be done in the silence, alone."
[OOC: Open!]
Re: Meditate!
Her steps trailed to a halt and her eyes widening when she heard her own words. She hadn't forgotten him, not really. Her mind had just been a little scattered in many different directions and she hadn't focused but now that her attention was brought back..
"No," she breathed, "NonononononoNONONO.. Norman! I need to find Norman! He can't go outside! It's all sick out here, everything's sick, he'll get sick too. He'll get sick and he'll see them, them and he can't! He can't see that!"
She whirled and almost fell, looking around frantically. Her eyes were a little vague - 'seeing around corners' - not so much looking at what was around her as looking at everything all at once and getting overwhelmed trying to see just one thing, one person.
"Barnabas.. Barnabas, where is he? Is he in our room? Did he stay inside?"
Barnabas shook his head and whuffed. "I think he went to class, Delirium."
"Kanan.. Kanan, I need to find Norman. Everything's gonna be everywhere and he'll get so sick. So sick, Kanan. It's everywhere and he can't.. I can't.. I .. They'll want him and I can't.. that can't.. He's my roommate!"
Del was darting in different directions because she didn't know which direction to go first.
Re: Meditate!
Kanan swore under his breath, and then darted off after Del, reaching out a hand to put on her shoulder.
"Delirium," he said, and now Space Dad was on the job, "Delirium, relax. We'll make sure your roommate is safe, okay? But panicking won't help. Deep breath. I know this is a lot. We'll get through it."
Re: Meditate!
Del stopped and slumped a little when his hand fell on her shoulder. She shook her head - and then spent a good minute thpththtpht'ing the hair out of her mouth. "Panicking. From the name of the Greek God Pan, because he used to terrify people to insanity and make them run away. I told him to stop. Did you know why there's no more Pan? I made him stop. Panic still happens. It's not fair. He was a fuzzy jerk. Not because he was fuzzy, all satyrs are fuzzy and most of them aren't jerks but he was. He liked to scare people. I don't like to be scared."
She took a breath, did as she was told. "This isn't a lot. This isn't even very much, not really, but it's all bad in all one place all right now and he's my roommate and I don't know what to do. I will later. I will when it's very bad. I always know then but I don't know right now and.. and Norman is my roommate and he could get hurt." Her brow furrowed. "And.. and Vette. She's my sister but she's not like my other sisters and I don't think she wants to be like them? But the school said she's my sister now so .. so I don't want her to get hurt either. I don't know if my other sisters .. I don't know what they'll do because the school gave me a new sister."
Her arms wrapped around her middle again. "And.. and I don't know what to do and that's scary for me but .. but when I do, when I know what I have to do.. then.. then it'll be scary for everyone else."
Re: Meditate!
"But the important things are," Kanan said gently, "that you'll know, and that whatever this is, however horrible it is for them, if the summer keeps on the way it's been going, it'll go away again. They'll be yours until they aren't again, assuming they even get... gotten."
He had no idea what the danger here was, but it wasn't difficult to convince him that there was one.
"Be there for them. Let them be there for you. And if it becomes too much anyway, we'll make it better. It's what we do."