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The Club Fair - Gym - Friday Afternoon 9/24/10

To be perfectly honest, Blackagar wasn't sure how he ended up being in the gym this afternoon. Let alone being one of the first people there.

But that was just how life worked sometimes.

Plus, it gave him a chance to look over the new clubs first! Score for him.

[~~Please wait for the~~ scary OCD is up!]

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Leia was checking out the fair and wandered over to Ben's table when she spotted him. "Is this one of those things I shouldn't ask about?" she said, eyeing the name of the club.

He smiled a little ruefully. "Probably. There are a few wars between your time and mine."

"I already know what I lose," Leia said quietly. Not all, not by a long shot. "I don't even know how to deal with a loss that hasn't even happened yet." But compartmentalizing and repression did wonders.

For a moment Ben's eyes widened, wondering if she'd heard about Alderaan. "Which loss is that?" he asked carefully.

"Anakin," Leia said. She hadn't really talked to anyone about him yet because complete denial seemed the more sensible option.

Ben looked sympathetic. "You shouldn't have to mourn someone you haven't met yet," he said quietly.

"But I did meet him," Leia pointed out. "How do you think I found out? He was here when my mother was." Had it been two months already?

He shook his head. "You'll get years with him before then," he replied, "and those should be enjoyed as they happen, not tinged with wondering when the other boot will drop."

Another reason why he hadn't really wanted what Jacen had become to get out.

"I'm not sure how I'm supposed to pretend I don't know," Leia said. "I don't even know if I can trust myself not to try to change things." She had no idea what kind of dangerous ground she was treading on with those kind of thoughts.

Ben gazed up at her, blue eyes full of worry. "Because your son will be a Jedi," he said quietly, "and there are more important things at stake than just our lives. You'll understand when it happens."

"My head knows that," Leia said. The logic was easy to grasp there. Her heart, not so much. "He told me he bought time for Jaina and Tahiri and Jacen."

Ben's expression didn't flicker at Jacen's name. "He bought time for a lot of people," he replied. "He shifted the tide of the war."

"And I have to accept that," Leia said softly. But she didn't sound entirely convincing.

"I wouldn't lie about it," Ben promised with a smile.

"I wouldn't think so," Leia said. "But what if it was your child you had to let die?"

"I can't ask Dad not to give me special favors and not expect to hold myself to the same standard," he said after a moment. "It's the price we pay for being who we are."

"What if I'm not strong enough?" Leia said. "What if when the time comes I can't do it? I can't let him go?" She tried to think positively about the future, but this had been a little bit too much of a blow to take.

Ben gave her a sad smile. "When the time comes, I don't think Anakin really gives you the choice."

"Why am I not surprised?" Leia said, shaking her head. He was her son, after all.

"We're a little stubborn," Ben replied.

"Now that I know my father, I know that you come by it naturally," Leia said, managing a smile.

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