Library [11/12]

[likethegun]

Sam had given more than a little thought to whether or not he could stand to be in the library today. There were a lot of places in Fandom that reminded him of Peter, but considering the number of times Peter visited him during work, even before they started dating, the library held some of Sam's strongest memories. In the end, Sam decided that Peter wouldn't want him putting his responsibilities on hold, and that was enough of an incentive to get him inside today. He had a book on the desk to make it look like he was reading, even while he just sat at the desk and let his mind wander.

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Re: Afternoon Periods [11/12]

[glacial_queen]

"I don't mind listening," Karla responded earnestly. "There's such a void when someone you love dies. And for a little while, all it does is get bigger when you realize just how entwined in your life and thinking they were. You might be different, but I found talking helped ease that void--you're still focusing on them--him, I mean--and how he affected your life, but not in a vaccuum. You're sharing, instead of dwelling. It helps. Not a whole lot, at least at first, but a bit."

Re: Afternoon Periods [11/12]

[likethegun]

"I guess you have a point," Sam said. "If there's one place Peter and I were entwined, it was here. He came to visit me sometimes when we first got to be friends, but then the more we hung out, the more he came by, until he started coming every week. It didn't matter what was going on, or what day of the week I was working, he came here to see me every week. I thought it'd be hard enough when he graduated, but this...it's a lot worse, to know he's never going to come in here again."

Re: Afternoon Periods [11/12]

[glacial_queen]

Karla understood that. She hadn't touched the piano for months after her parents had died; knowing her father would never sit down and play duets with her again had been too much.

"But, just the same, isn't this then one of the places where you feel closest to him?" Karla asked tentatively. "Since so much of his essence permeates this room and your memories? Though--that might be later, when everything isn't so, umm, acute."

Re: Afternoon Periods [11/12]

[likethegun]

"I hadn't thought about it that way," Sam said. "But I think you're right. This place reminds me so much of him and...yeah, maybe that won't hurt so much later."

Re: Afternoon Periods [11/12]

[glacial_queen]

Karla gave him a soft, encouraging smile. "You're very brave for being able to face this place now," she admitted. "I wasn't, not at first. So--I admire that."