She gave the smallest shake of her head. "I don't feel pain as pain anymore. Not since I was a kid. It's always pleasure. First thing they did to me. The only way I know the difference is because regular pleasure doesn't leave me craving more. Shit that should hurt?" Lift of a shoulder.

"Real easy to forget I'm all fucked up inside because I been this way all my life I remember. Real easy to hurt other people when you think everyone feels shit the same way you do because pain doesn't really hurt."